how did i spent my christmas?
do you really want to know ??

Christmas day was probably the first time ever i jumped up from my bed at 10.30am with no plans to go out or anyone to report to, and said

" SHIT ! IM LATE ! "

nope..i wasnt rushing to open the christmas presents under my christmas tree..
i dont celebrate Christmas, remember?
and i dont have a christmas tree.

i already missed the morning sun and i had to :
do the laundry
feed the fishes
feed the tortoises
iron the clothes
clean the house
make my own breakfast
find my own lunch

my mum will kill me if the clothes doesnt dry on time..
my dad will kill me if the fishes starve..
sigh..its not so fun to be home alone without parents after all.
after i was done with everything, guess what did i do?
nope..i didnt go out and go crazy exploiting the fact that my parents are not at home.
stayed at home obediently staring at the four walls in my house and waited for my parents to come home..
i heard they're coming back in the afternoon..
they finally came back at 9pm..
bringing extra luggage with them.
extra luggage : my older sister. lol

the next day,
i was reminded that i have a very annoying sister.

at 10 am :
sis : "mei..wake up la wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up.. wake up..
wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up.. wake up..wake up.. wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up.. wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up.. wake up.. wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up.. wake up..wake up.. wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up..wake up.. wake up.."
*pulling my blanket further and further away from me with every 'wake up' *

me : *damn freaking annoyed and grumpy* "GO AWAYYYYY LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! " rawrRRRRRRRRR

oh and btw,

as much as karyan pretends that she's having fun in spore, i believe that she is actually bored to death.
i dont see why would someone need so many days to explore singapore.
and instead of going out to do some exploring in the afternoon, i often see her spore.

eh karyan,
come back to malaysia la.

come my house, i let you go online for free also.



i've got the best christmas present ever !
wanna know what is it?
one of my christmas wish list item !
awesomeness i tell you !
thank you la weyy..
i seriously honestly truthfully appreciate this.
tell me what you want please. seriously please. lol
thank you ! =D


merry christmas everybody !

its a season to be jolly !
fa la la la la
la la la la !



as a present from me to you,
you dont have to buy me anything for christmas !
isnt that like..the coolest present ever ?
i know im awesome.
someone once said,

" if you wait long enough, it will eventually come to you "

how long wait? by =sa-cool

i've been waiting..
for a really long time in fact.
tell me,
how long exactly is 'long enough' ?

waiting is a painful thing to do.


you see the smile
you hear the laughter
how well do you really know her?

and insomnia returns.
you know what?
i've decided la..
i dont want anything else for christmas..

all i want for christmas is...

a new phone!

a person who doesnt celebrate christmas is talking about christmas a lil too much, dont you think so?

anyway, im off to a haircut and a movie with mr. xyz !
just like the old times..

another personal post just went into my drafts.

sigh.. its been a pretty sad night tonight..
oh well..
gotta suck it up and live with it right?

swensens on tues with kai?

yesterday marked the last day of my semester.
im finally done for the year !
i picked up the newspaper and read them after so long ! i felt like i missed so much ! *hugs newspaper* lol
quotes jueliene: " im going online with no purpose ! "

[ alicia, su mei, lyn, melody, jeremy, etc etc: call me when you read this ! its time bout time we play catching with each other's life ! :D :D]

note number 1:
in a blink of an eye, another sem has gone by..
gotta admit that this is by far the worst semester ever..
but oh well, gotta suck it up and live with it.
submitted the most horrible assignment ever last night and went redbox with a bunch of friends and a lecturer to de-stress despite not sleeping the night before.
quote jue liene : " everytime we go karaoke, sure got a moment where i'll be emo wan.. "
true enough la..
i thought of the first time i went karaoke at neway two years ago.
room 42.
the place where a supposedly beautiful relationship started.
it wasnt so beautiful after all..
but oh well..those were the days..

note number 2:
my phone's screen has officially died on me today samsung :(
so people..
dont msg me okay !
i wont be able to read them..
call me okay ? :D
my phone is still working fine..
its just that the screen is not. *sighhh*
anyone has a spare phone for me to use temporarily ? =/

note number 3:
yee won is good.
bye kar yan..merry christmas =/

note number 4:
i swear i have more notes to talk about.
but i cant remember ! =/
oh well..

i wonder if you will.

i better do this before its too late. haha
hey you !

sorry i didnt msg you alright !
my phone's not in a very good condition now =(

i shall give you a grand wish here okay !
a blog post just for you ! :D
to the boy who owes me ramly burger since 214645634 years ago..

to the boy who owes me haagen dasz since 214645634 years ago..

to the boy who's suppose to make me the first passenger in his car..and failed to do so. grr
to the boy who's ever so kiam siap..hahahaha
to the boy who has a handsome brother
to the boy who left malaysia to joined the others in aussieland

to the boy who looks like pak cham kai.. HAHA
to the boy who called me on my birthday all the way from aussieland..[ just so you know, it was really sweet and im still touched by that because you're the last person i expected to get a call from =)]

happy 19th birthday the-ever-not-so-handsome-but-no-longer-single
chan jian hao !

jian [the one in the middle] is confused..
he's not sure if he likes penis or breasts more.

i'm sure you're having a jolly good time on your birthday
lets hang out soon alright ?
we have some catching up to do...

is absolutely fantastically



oh jeremy and mel too
all i want for christmas is...

lol if only im that unmaterialistic. hahahaha
anyway, not that i celebrate christmas,
but since everyone is in a christmasy mood, i thought i'd join in ! :D
so, what do i want for christmas?
lets start with the illogical ones first la..

1. a CAR

im not that good in driving yet..
so i thought i'd start with a small car first..

a honda jazz. :)
a pearl white one okayy.. not that color.

that color not

i hate to be bitten by this ipod craze thing..
but i cant help it!

this ipod nano-chromatic is beautiful la weyyy..
the red or purple one okay? :D

3. a PIANO

yeap..i want a piano !
i regretted quitting piano last time.
what to do..i was a stupid kid la..
now, i find the piano very graceful and elegant..
i think everyone thinks so too..haha

i want a piano as well as free piano lessons la..
i want to play songs instead of noise on the piano :( lol

4. a sony cyber-shot T300/ skinny-T

it would be a lil too much to ask for a DSLR *HINT HINTTTTTTTTTT* la..
so i lowered down my demands to digital cams.
haha we move on to the not-so-logical-but-can-be-done as well as the totally-doable kind of demands.

5. to spend the night at the beach

it doesnt make much sense to want this for christmas right?
its just something i've always wanted to do la..
to spend the night at the beach..

thinking about what to think about..

to relax while listening to the sound of the waves

and looking at the pretty reflection of the moon on the sea..

6. a hoodie

i like the black hoodie on the right.

7. a happy tree friends top

yeap ! this particular happy tree friends top okay !
thank you ! :D

8. a wallet
i've always wanted the chequebook kind of wallet.
but cant seem to find one that i totally adore..=/
not necessarily must be this design,
but this kind of wallet la..
btw, i think the design is kinda cool. lol

9. a closet full of clothes and shoes and bags and dresses and accessories etc etc.

the perfect christmas gift
i need to feminise
[i know the word does not exist] myself la..
i am aware that most of the time my dressing can be a lil too selekeh.. to get boyfriend la like that ? haha

but then need to buy damn hell alot of new stuff and all..
and i rather shop for food than to shop for clothes..
so why dont you save me the trouble
and just give me a whole new wardrobe full of clothes?
make sure theres a belt included. i need a belt.


10. family guy season 1-8 dvds as well as a whole box of good movies and shows.
it will be a holiday during christmas [duh..]
its a good opportunity for me to just sit down,
collect dust while watching family guy
and all the good movies and shows that i have not watched yet.

11. a few buckets of lego

i pretty much grew up playing lego..not barbie dolls.
i never had a barbie doll..
maybe that explains my lack of feminine dressing..cause i never played dress-ups before. haha
lego used to come in buckets like the one above
and as far as i can remember, i think my siblings and i had like a few buckets of lego.
my dad once built a house for us with lego..
like a really really cool and big house with roof and everything..
but then we were stupid and unappreciative kids.
he used up a lot of the lego..
as beautiful as the house was, we destroyed it. :(
i think my mum gave them away.
i cant seem to find them anymore.. :(
i have a dream to accomplish with lego. :D
12. a puzzle necklace

im starting to get lazy already so this shall be the last item on my christmas list la kay?
i love this thing.
i dont know why. lol
so yea, a puzzle necklace would be nice as a christmas gift for me..
thank you :)
p/s: while searching for these pictures,
i found out that a puzzle necklace is also one of the items used to create awareness on autism.

i know im a greedy person..
materialistic things aside,
i do want to celebrate christmas with you this year..


EDIT: just because i dont celebrate christmas
DOES NOT means
that you dont have to get me presents okay !

dont have much time to do some serious thoughts on my blog nowadays,
i usually dont do tags
but in efforts to keep this page updated and to keep you entertained,
i shall do a tag now.
give me some time kay.
dec 19th.
i cant wait.
all the drink tea sessions.
and all the celebrations.

anyway, tag tag.

My Top 5 Most Favorite Foods;

x Tom Yam
x Seafood
x Jap
x Jonker Street 88 durian cendol
x dimsum

10 Things I Love Doing;

x sleeping
x eating
x watching movies
x bonding sessions with family
x drink tea sessions
x having stupid conversations with best friend
x finding for good food
x going for a retreat
x traveling

Things I Love Doing When I’m EMO;

x eating
x not talking
x kumon math
x blasting the music in my earphones
x staring into space
x sleeping
x eating ice cream cake

5 Things I Love Doing When I’m Happy;

x smile without even realising it
x listening to the music
x staring into space
x cleaning up the house
x makan

5 Things I Wish To Happen;

x get married and have kids. haha
x to be awesomely rich.
x to do well enough for this semester.. =/
x less pretentious and ugly people in the world.
x cooler weather.

My Top 5 Most Addicted songs;

x everytime we touch - cascada
x sephia - sheila on 7
x superman - five for fighting
x your guardian angel - the red jumpsuit apparatus
x your winter - sister hazel

5 people I Wish to tag;

x chowtan
x yi lyn
x jian
x karyan
x melody

temptation kills la okay.

chan jian hao,
i want ice cream cake.
im sick of this.

i need a haircut.


i think my mood is swinging back.

nama glamour.

Mauled to death by white tigers

SINGAPORE: A Malaysian worker from Sarawak died after he was mauled by tigers at the Singapore Zoo in Mandai Road yesterday.

Visitors watched in horror as three white tigers pounced on Nordin Montong, 32, who was said to have entered the enclosure where the tigers were kept. Zoo workers rushed to rescue him by distracting the tigers.

A Singapore police spokesman, who confirmend the incident when contacted by Bernama, said the man was injured on the neck and body.

Paramedics pronounced him dead at 12.45pm.

Gathering evidence: Police leaving the white tiger enclosure at the Singapore Zoo after collecting evidence. – Reuters

Singapore Zoo assistant director of zoology Biswajit Guha said the victim’s family had been notified.

He said zoo officials had sent condolences to the family and would provide any assistance they needed.

Biswajit also said zoo authorities had commenced investigations into “this isolated incident”.

As a precautionary measure, the zoo authorities had temporarily closed the white tiger exhibit, he added.

Recounting the incident, he said the victim, a contract worker, was attacked by three white tigers after he allegedly jumped into the moat at the white tiger exhibit.

The ensuing commotion attracted the attention of a keeper who was nearby.

Other keepers went to the exhibit to distract the tigers in a bid to rescue the worker.

The keepers managed to rescue the worker and brought him out of the exhibit, Biswajit said.

While waiting for the ambulance, the zoo veterinarians attended to him but Nordin had succumbed to his wounds, he added.

zoo cleaner behaved erratically

[The Star, 14th and 15th november 2008]

- edited -
i was battling against myself of whether to insert the video of the attack or not.
readers who read this entry earlier would have saw the video.
after thinking thoroughly, i took the video down due to the..i dont know..the gruesomeness of the video?
besides that, it's very very inconsiderate and sickening.
if you still wish to view the attack, then go ahead.
not for the too weak hearted, seriously.

regardless of whether the rumor of the cause of death were true or not,
deepest condolences to the family.

habitat: hot and cold forested area. [thats what written on their description]
where it was: in malaysia. to be displayed under the hot sun.
why: sth to do with the REPTILES exhibition.
i didnt know they're reptiles. -_-

it was quite saddening to see them.
both of them kept moving to and fro, left and right..
as if they're trying to find a way out..
they made sounds every time they're in front of me..
after a while, one of them gave up trying and just rested there.
those are foxes btw.
NOT a dog/cat/mouse breed. lol

.i have a question.

why didn't it last?

i thought it was heading somewhere..

maybe i was thinking too much.

where are you now?

i'm lost.
random picture of the day.


hey you,
dont want
to think that
i have feelings for you.

VIRGO - The One that Waits

Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget the one and only.

extracted it from an email.
i would like to think that some of the things mentioned are inaccurate..
[eg: Someone loves them right now.]
doesnt seem very logical to me..
especially when this is an email circulated to everyone everywhere 365days a year..
im talking about the couple love kind of love now..
not the fatherly motherly family love.
if they are talking about the fatherly motherly family love,
then doesnt that statement '
Someone loves them right now' applies to all zodiac signs and earthlings ?

there are quite a number of statements which i agree with in the description as well,
or at least i would like to think there is..
[eg: Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and NEVER REGAIN RESPECT.]
theres someone in my mind right now regarding this statement.

but wow..
dominant in relationships.
always wants the last word.
needs to have the last say in everything.
they think they know everything and usually do.
they do not forgive.
makes me sound damn hell bossy dont you think?

im bossy..
but at the same time, im easy.
easy to talk to.
everything you ever wanted.
easy to please.
a pushover.

which is true?
which is not?
tell me.
i rather not know.

kai xian sudah balik
for the past few weeks, he has been saying this to me:
"fail la you"
because i could never remember the date he's landing his ass in malaysia.
but oh well.
now that he's back,
welcome back la friend
mari kita pergi makan ice cream.
i remember saying that i will build a trust fund and collect 10sen everyday and spend it all on you when you get back.
but, obviously your trust fund's no where to be found

on another note,

happy birthday chong chee ching !
have a blast on your birthday kay!

people always ALWAYS make assumptions, regardless of whether do they know the subject personally or not.
when you see two person of different gender walking side by side, they could be siblings or best friends..but people would naturally assume that they are a couple.
which reminds me..i've got the perfect example..
the last time i went up to genting, i was walking around with my brother at first world hotel. i forgot where my parents were..anyway, the two of us were just doing some INNOCENT walking. in fact, we were not even talking to each other. but that did not stop some middle aged man from approaching us. he asked if we would like to have a room. he has a spare room.
ughh..gross la.
does my brother and i look like a couple? because thats just plain gross.
either that or the man thinks im some china prostitute or sth..
which is equally gross. lol

see, assumptions.

i will not deny that i am one of those who make assumptions of strangers and people im not particularly close to.
there was a lady crying behind me at the escalator the other day. her boyfriend [i assume] was standing next to her..rubbing her shoulders.
"the couple behind me just takaoed. the girl's crying."
i ASSUMED that they just quarreled. for all i know, maybe the girl's fish just got into an accident or sth. but i ASSUMED that they just quarreled because the guy was standing next to her.
whether there's truth or not in it does not matter.

why do people assume?
i've been a victim of assumption.
and it was not a pleasant experience especially when theres absolutely no truth in those assumptions which were spread around.
trying to defend the truth takes a lot of effort.
after a while, one will eventually get so sick of trying to defend the truth and just leave it as it is.
it'll die down soon enough..
as some of them say, 'ignorance is bliss'

the purpose of this entry?
i have no idea.
*Ivanl~Veltra* says:
however no pictures
*Ivanl~Veltra* says:
and it seems that your blog has been changing personality quite often
- waicheen says:
- waicheen says:
changing personality ??
- waicheen says:
- waicheen says:
i like that sentence
- waicheen says:
- waicheen says:
*Ivanl~Veltra* says:
one day sad next day happy then the next emo
*Ivanl~Veltra* says:
and now its just kinda neutral

my blog has mood swings as bad as mine !

"i do sleep early ! ... early in the morning."

im a person who cant sleep at night and
has trouble waking up in the morning..
and i don't really like it.

dear jeremysiow,
i just want to say that i'm proud of you.
but thats only
if you're not lying just to make me feel better la.
i hope to see you soon.


dear aliciatan,
how are things with you?
mine's stagnant
btw, wednesday shall be a weekly thing okay?


dear cynthiatan,
why are you only coming back in dec la? =(
oh well,
good also la..
you coming back in dec means there wont be any distractions for me and karyan until dec.
there will be a lot of gossips and scandals that you need to be updated on though..
take care of yourself okayy
you get what i mean.


dear ahalal,
although we're not even halfway done with our assignment,
it is a blessing to be in the same group as you guys..
there will some roadblocks along the way,
but hopefully we'll pull through.
nevertheless, i am sure we'll have lots of fun and i look forward to those times.


dear apit-g,
what happened to us?


dear kaixian,
you're coming back tomorrow !
you, me and ivan shall celebrate your return with swensens icecream.
ivan's treat


dear ivantong,
how come la we no longer talk online as often as we used to?
both also doing mass comm..
both also sama so busy..
im busy with assignments,
you're busy with fallout3, spore, friday night 'prayers', etc
lets go to your house again soon.
i miss hammock.


dear jordan,
you're the stranger i met through sms..
damn funny weyy..
you randomly smsing ppl wishing them good luck for spm.
im glad i got to know you..
through you, i got to know ivan and william.
and as far as i know, all three of you are quite a gentleman. sometimes.


dear jian hao,
your blog says that you're done with 2008's exams,
so i assume you'll be landing your ass on malaysia's soil soon.
cant wait to see how much weight you've put on.
but the most important thing is,
or else this friendship is over my friend !
haegan daez..


dear karyan,
it has been a while since we last hung out..


dear sis,
i heard you're running a marathon tomorrow..
good luck.
i hope you'll be able to finish it.
come home soon.

bob ?
i dont have a picture of him.

he thinks i cant make a proper 'C'. =@ grr
he thinks im a brat. =(
he thinks im smart. =D
he thinks im pretty. =P

haha im so full of myself la.
okay okay.
bob being bob, he DEMANDED for me and yeewon to write sth about him la.
so us being us, being a nice and angelic and misunderstood [im not a brat la. ._. ] ,
we are writing something about him now.
yee won did her post already..
so here i am, squeezing my brain juice thinking of what to write about bob.

bob bob bob / bobman / bobstar / current msn name: We will We Will Bob you
thats not even his real name.
why cant some people just be contented with their REAL name.
why bob WHY?
i dont know if he likes his real name or not but he was introduced to me as 'bob'.
he does have the 'BOB' look though.
his real name is abdul rahim sth sth.
he's a friend in college who worries a lil too much about my well being.
always claims that i look exhausted and tired.
dont get me wrong, thats very nice ya know..
he's very caring :)
it feels like he's more of a father than a friend sometimes..
he doesnt like the fact that i think he's more like a father sometimes.

reminds everyone of mr. zul.
and i actually think mr. zul is a pretty nice guy..
seriously !
maybe its because i was too oblivious to notice the not-so-nice side of him la.

bob is afraid of heights.
bob likes queen.
bob likes getting drunk.
bob wants to give me his car. HAHA
bob likes to play the 'i spy with my eyes' game. so childish.. HAHA
bob is going australia next year.
so we only have one more month with bob.
bye bob.

conclusion : bob seorang kawan yang baik. or at least i think so now la. haha

i ran under the rain just now..
then i realised that if i run,

it would end sooner..

so i slowed down..

and started walking under the rain.

it felt
really soothing.
for a moment, it kinda felt like..

my worries and frustrations went with the rain..

it has been far too long since the last pour.
as much as she doubts that it'll happen,
wai cheen's going for 24 hours.

keep me conscious.

damn crazy wey..
when i dont update, i dont update at all..
when i update, i update too many times.

im freaking typing in the wrong window la..
i should be typing in a microsoft word doing my moral now.
how on earth do you prevent premarital sex ?!!?!

okay la..i have to wake up in 4 hours time la.
time to get serious with moral.

i cant wait for everyone to get back.
i miss the world.

it's wednesday.
i'll be coming.
please tell me i'll get to see you.
"miii ! teman me eat dinner !"
"im not free la." *goes upstairs*

"kor ! teman me eat dinner !"
"i got stuff to do" *goes upstairs*

i absolutely loathe having dinner alone..
it quiet..
and pretty dark..
it gives me too much time to think too much

alicia !
do you remember this video ?
i found it again.
btw, can you ask the authors of chowtan to update their blog? haha
UH ?

this should be a pretty old video..
it was the first music video i watched that made my heart moved a lil..
my brother showed it to me...
then my sister showed it to me..
then alicia showed it to me..
years ago la..
suddenly things that happened years ago are all popping up in my head.

enjoy the video la
: kiss - because im a girl. :

i dont think men like that exist in reality though.
5 years ago,
ernest said, "eyy...i cant hear you. you're talking too fast."

*terkenang balik masa dahulu* ernest..
i USED TO have a major crush on him..
im not afraid to admit it because he was a real gentleman and a perfect friend.
that was then la..
im not quite sure about now.
we were pretty close back then..
random calls that lasted for hours and smses..
too bad we did not keep in touch after he left school..
he was a very expensive person to msg la..
016..tsk tsk..

there was once when he called at 9 sth on the eve on my birthday
and we just started talking and all la..
then i asked him,
" planning to talk to me until my birthday arrives?"
"err...yea..unless you dont want la.."
:D :D
that was 5 years ago la okayy..
talking for 3 hours is considered damn long for a form 2 kid..

omg i terpesong damn far weyy..
this post is not about ernest !

he once told me that i talk too fast..

somewhere between then and now, another friend had told me again that i talk too fast..
and i thought i slowed down already till..

2 nights ago, someone told me i talk too fast.

i feel so unfeminine la..