bleh


am currently going through one of those emo moods where i don't feel like replying, talking, listening, or looking at anyone. apologies to those whom i did not reply on msn. now i'm doing things that does not require me to interact with anyone directly. i have no idea why am i feeling like this. its not that it feels nice. my heart or something inside me feels darn heavy right now.


and its not because of my period cause i've already had my time of the month for the month of december. a lil personal but wth. i will get annoyed as soon as someone opens their mouth to speak to me, regardless of who. i virtually hung up the phone on my sis. and i told both my mum and sis that they're troublesome in a damn annoyed manner. i know its my mum and my older sis. i know its rude and yet i did it. as much as i hate to admit it, i think i am quite a spoilt brat at times. trying to avoid myself from speaking to my dad right now as i do not want to create any bullshit for myself. i noticed that i have been ranting like theres no tomorrow lately. i'm so bitter.
i can't seem to find the word to explain this feeling.






i know..






this feels like shit.

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the only reason he got a post all by himself is because the next post is kinda bitter.

goshhh..those days when you still cant smile.. =b

happy belated birthday chan jian hao !
jiann, you're 18 already !
being older doesn't mean you can simply go do stuff already okayy..
jaga diri baik baik..
jangan main sini main sana..
terutamanya bila kat melb..=/
anywayyyyy..
sorry i did not go to your suprise party.
i know you had fun though.
something out of your tradition heh ? =)
btw,
can't wait for january to comeeeeeeeeeee ! =b
you better BETTER remember ! *evil grins*

im always at least a day late when it comes to posting these birthday wishes.
that's why it's always happy belated birthday. -_-
not that it matters anyway.
its the thought that counts.
whoa

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haji is tomorrow
christmas is in 6 days time
2008 is in 12 days time
which means
december is coming to an end
which means
year 2007 is coming to an end

this leaves me pondering..
what have i done this whole year?

hopefully next blog post : -insert number- of things that i've done in the year 2007

feverism is in me now
i feel hot
*winks*
lol
-__-

ilikebumperstickers.


" don't find love
let love find you.
that's why it's called falling in love,
because you don't force yourself to fall,
you just fall. "

hao xiang wen ni dui wo hai you mei you tung si.
lol
I'm not chinese educated
so ignore all the wrong spellings la
as long as its understandable.
-_-
i have a lot of questions to ask you.
but the first question will determine the outcome of all the other questions.
maybe its time to turn to wikipedia to answer all my life questions.
o.o

anywayyyyyyyyyyyy..
happie belated birthday carynn !
goshh..i don't have a picture of/with you
-__-
its okayyy
i shall patiently wait for you to send the pics
i wonder if it'll ever get to me.
haha
this one year best friends four years enemies and now friends again weird friendship of ours.
haha
but oh well..
at least it's something we can look back and have a laugh about =p
lol
happiebirthday woman :)

finals is more or less over.
why do i still feel so stressed up?

ineedmorecapitaltorunmylife.

oh yeaa..just to flaunt a small bit of chingy's skills :

she drew that like...in 10minutes..or less?
on the back of my business comm notes.
haha
it was during the mont kiara thing
all you need to do is give her a pen and paper
and she'll probably not pay much attention to you anymore
till she finishes her graffiti or till she gets bored of it.
=b

fool's garden - comedy song


awesome.
my kind of thing.
:)

ho ho ho

yo
kinda felt obligated to blog after seeing mei peng's comment
hahahaha
im trying to find an excuse from my field production assignment due TOMORROW anyway
-__-
so yea
expect a lot of bullshit here
had my journalism paper today
and not suprisingly..
we were the last three again..*shy*
haha
seriously makes me wonder how some people write so fast laaaaaa
-_-
for this paper...
its either i did okay or i screwed the whole paper up
not sure if the stuff were applied appropriately..=/
but to look at the bright side,
no more papers till jan ! =)

finished bullshitting with karisha the bitch already..

she's gonna read my blog..so i better put a pic of her here.sekali she complain not enough love. -__-

overnight plans almost done =D

i kept making plans and now i realised that some plans are overlapping and i forgot that i still have class after exams and i still have to work after exams..

damnnnnnnnn

anywayyyyy..

she left me to go watch house

i shall go watch house now too

no wait..
rephrase
i shall go ANALYSE house now too
damn assignment
*runs off*

okay okayy..LAST ONEE..

wait...
i forgot something...
it's my sister's birthday today..
haha
happie birthday yo !

one of the few rare pics that i have with you in it.



oh oh oh...and happie belated birthday su mei !

your birthday..last year ? haha

okay..seriously..

bye :)

omgg

wtf is wrong with me ?!!?!?
4 posts in one damn day !
screwed laa
i really need to stop fooling around..
bye !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ooo laa laaaaa

read ky's blog
suddenly teringat balik about our dinner after penjelasan hutang at wong kok
which left one puking and the other one having a really long call with nature.
haha
we had a really meaningful talk..
those that really goes deep down into your heart..
but no..its nothing about boys..
so yea..its THAT meaningful and THAT deep down..
:D

d mont kiara event was okay actually..
a lil quiet..
all the bintangs were mostly so the handsome.
too bad d parkinsons disease didn't do his moves that night..
another bintang did the move.
not as breath taking.. =/
*shakes head*
one thing about plaza mont kiara
the outside of the toilet stinks more than the inside of the toilet.
smelt as if some dead cats and rats are rotting or something.
[maybe a LIL exagerrated..]
but yea..it kinda smelt something like that.
-_-

to that boy


to the boy i met in september and fell for in october,

where's the birthday present i forced you to promised me?
where's the movie watching that you promised me?
where's the yumcha session you promised me?
where's the sit-in-the-car-and-talk session you promised me?
where's the i'll-never-say-goodbye-because-i-care you promised me?
lol
i miss you.
weirdly enough, i couldn't stop thinking of you last night when i was suppose to be studying..
NEARLY sent you a message..
but oh well..
tried to find a substitute..
found one BUT HE WAS TOO BUSY TO LAYAN ME CAUSE HE WAS AT HIS FRIEND'S HOUSE..
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy..so yeaa..i hope you're doing well..
i hope we'll still see each other even after you move away.
you're still here and its not like we're seeing each other anyway..
so for all we know, it might not even make a difference.
i do hope that there will be a last meet up before you move though.
just like you promised.
before the end of this month..
as much as i want this month to end..
i don't want it to either..
cause it'll mean that you are that much further away..
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i know he don't read this blog..that's why im so tidak apa about this.
at least i don't think he reads this blog.
lol
for all i care,
maybe he doesn't even know this blog exist.
lol
its funny how much more i love blogging when i'm having my finals.
another excuse to not study perhaps ?
duh.

2 more papers , 2 more assignments

and so i had my business comm paper todayy..
all of us went in late..
so it ended late
hehe
anywayyyyyy
some of them finished the paper damn fast..
like in...30 minutes ?!
whoaaaaa...i was only half way through my first question man that time
-_-
but oh well..
why rush when there's still time..
haha
somehow was not surprised that mich, jue, ky and i were the last ones left in the room..
mich left quite some time before us
while the 3 of us stayed till....
the time was up..
hohoho
yes
i am this bored.

june is back :)
can't wait to see you woman.
kita pergi minum !
*celebrates*
i know this is damn random
but then
heyyy...

"if you can't accept me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

..i love this quote.

holidays !!! no where to be seen...=/

saturday, 8th December 2007 - penjelasan hutang at plaza mont kiara

sunday, 9th December 2007 - study ass off

monday, 10th December 2007 - Business Comm paper

tuesday, 11th December 2007 - hols ! , work training ? do assignment and study ass off

wednesday, 12th December 2007 - Journalism paper

thursday, 13th December 2007 - Field Production individual assignment due date..[ faggot... ]

friday, 14th December 2007 - chingy's class christmas play

saturday, 15th December 2007 - christmas open house

31st December 2007 ?? - Field Production group assignment due date

4h January 2008 - Pengajian Malaysia paper

where's my college holidays ?!?!?!?! -__________________________-
yea i know d class play and open house is irrelevant..
but i just wanna put it there..
makes it look more stressful
hehe
=)

i found out what you are.

that whole bullshit talk was just to us a reason to be a fake wasn't it?
I'm sorry I'm not good in faking.
i tried to fake it but i can't. i refuse to fake.
you can act well but i have no interest in acting with you.

not even one small bit of that whole waste-of-time-talk was sincere.
you said this argument is between us and lets not drag anyone else in?
then whats with all those messages you are sending to people to tell me this and tell me that?
why don't you steal some balls and send it to me straight?
if you already know that i couldn't care less,
then sending a message to me through a middle person will not make a difference.

you have nothing to hide?
bullshit.

you want me to trust you?
prove that you're worth trusting in the first place.

you want trust and honesty, that's all?
let me tell you something.
the world does not live to please you.
if you do not get what you want, then too bad.
live with it.

you are asking me to be more straightforward?
why don't you try that yourself?
this straightforward thing is just an excuse for you to fight back.
I'm sorry if you don't understand metaphors.

and whats with you trying to insist a lie right in front of my face when i know the truth.
its dumb.
i just got so tired of arguing that i just kept my mouth shut since you were all so i-want-to-have-the-last-say.

and sorry if you were fierce?
err..no you were not fierce..you were the one crying.. -_-

you made my anger level shoot up every time you say my name.
it made me feel as if i was degraded. -_-
in case u didn't notice, i didn't even say your name once.

and please stop pretending like you care.
i can see right through it.

yea it was good times that we had last time.
but that was last time.
that was when every single person's mask was still on.
everyone was a nice person.
everyone was an angel.
till each mask started to slowly dissolve.
then the true devil comes out.

i found out what you are.
you are a typical drama queen.
you want sympathy from everyone.
even though you should know well enough that you do not deserve it.

i guess it is pretty easy to make people hate me.
but it's not easy to make me hate people.
you must have had quite some experience.

you are probably gonna tell everyone that i don't have balls
that's why i have to badmouth you on my blog.
maybe you're right.
but maybe it's just because i don't want to talk to you.

gosh i need a break.
you're making me sick.
if you want to live in your own world,
then go ahead.
just don't drag me in
for i live in reality.

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yes i am that bitter right now.
i do not promote my blog
so you had every right to leave this page
but you chose to read it all the way till here
so don't you dare come pointing fingers at me announcing to the planet that i badmouth you to the world.
my blog is not meant for everyone's reading.
you choose to read at your own risk.
this blog is for me to rant.
and i do not give a damn shit about the world.
my superior is probably one of the gold members of bitch club.

is it true ?


hey guys..
i have a question..
just out of curiosity..
was out yumcha-ing with a male [identity shall not be revealed just in case..lol] and kar yan the other night..
and as usual..we were chatting like the world's gonna end tomorrow
we suddenly came to this topic..
and this male made a statement..
" when a guy gets close to a girl, like talk to her everyday..sure got feeling wan..you'll start to wonder what is she doing, miss her and care a lot about her..but it's not that special kind of feeling..its just care.."
or sth like that la..
but..when a guy only cares..
the girl probably fell head over heels of him already..
so... is it true ? =(

on the way home, ky said : that's why guys and girls can hardly be best friends..=/
then we both sorta silently emo..-_-
bet that male never thought that his statement would even affect us..but it did..lol
sigh...
anywayyyyy..
when we were young..haha
cynthia tan is back !!
but kar yan n i should be a lil too busy with college finals and assignments to layan her..
but oh well..
she can always watch us do our assignments..
better still..
HELP US WITH IT..
bwahahahahahahahahahahaha =)